getting a second opinion

it’s a cloudy memory
over 5 years passed

this is how
it happened . . .

something was wrong
I was bent over
unable to sit for
more than half hour
not sleeping
not eating

I’m dying streaming
through my mind

first doctor
said I was stressed
and depressed and gave me
pills for depression
I will feel renewed soon
she said

pills caused me to
spiral into depression & fear
I had never known

doctor said
come in for another visit
she gave me
different pills
and the spiral into darkness
continued

called the doctor back
she said
see a psychiatrist
it’s all in your mind

I kept thinking
I could have cancer
I found comfort, reading
all the books I discovered
of people who survived cancer

it’s a strange and lonely feeling
when you feel death at your door
and not knowing
where to turn

a friend . . . another doctor
saw me a month later
ordered tests and
blood samples
CT scans
X rays
and the phone call came . . .

my doctor said
find a surgeon immediately
I felt shock
the days turned to
clouds of fog

met with surgeon
serious he said
better schedule surgery
tomorrow

that was over 5 years ago
It took a year to recover
from the anxiety, fear and pain
that had mounted
I became best friends with
anxiety and depression

since then
when my friends named anxiety and depression
come around, we are
on better speaking terms

Published by Jim Wortham

As a teen, wanted to live from writing poetry. Wrote several books, selling nationally. Hung out with readers throughout the United States. My writing has been on back burner. Now dusting off my desk and have my pen in hand. Hope you enjoy some of what I write.

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