I do not know why I feel dread when I awaken
like something wrong is going to happen
Maybe I feel like I am not right with you, Jesus
Did I ask for forgiveness for the wrongs of yesterday
Christianity is messy for me at times
I have habits I am trying to break
I hold resentments toward others
I try to forgive them
but their faces flash before me
Help me feel normal when I awaken
without waking up to fear
Let me feel I am clean and right with you
Jesus, I don’t want to be
what you don’t want me to be
Help me, please