poetry
My morning seems broken
Did not want to get out of bed
Food has no flavor
I swallow multivitamins
instead of eating
I stare out the window
it is peaceful out there
but very cold
I will stay in
turn the phone off
It is a day to be alone
with my thoughts
to direct me
do nothing
or something
Maybe today is
for talking with Jesus
I do not need to turn my phone on
Hello Jesus
how are you today?
I feel I am at an amusement park
ready to be thrown off a merry-go-round
I am trying to keep up with life
with the obligations
I have accepted
Help me set down
the things others have asked of me
I cannot stand much longer
under the weight of the demands
Help me set down the projects
that burden me
and walk away
I need time alone
I need time with you
Help me say no
when I need to say no
Jesus, you see the lonely people in this parking lot
going home without love?
Today, I bought two dozen roses to give away.
I’m depending on you to lead me to
those who need a spark of love.
I need you to point out twenty-four
people needing love.
I have a red rose for each of them.
Thanks, Jesus.
I do not know why I feel dread when I awaken
like something wrong is going to happen
Maybe I feel like I am not right with you, Jesus
Did I ask for forgiveness for the wrongs of yesterday
Christianity is messy for me at times
I have habits I am trying to break
I hold resentments toward others
I try to forgive them
but their faces flash before me
Help me feel normal when I awaken
without waking up to fear
Let me feel I am clean and right with you
Jesus, I don’t want to be
what you don’t want me to be
Help me, please
You walked with me
even to places I should never have been
You watched
as I did things that were just wrong
You allowed me to trip and fall
so I would look for a different path
Angels protected me
The angels talked & walked & laughed
All that time
I thought they were human
I know you sent them
I am reaching for your hand once again
I am older now
I do not see as well
My path is changing again
Jesus
Please keep walking & talking & protecting me
Hello Jesus,
I know you are watching over every step I make
When I go the wrong direction you help me turnaround
I have felt isolated this year
The Coronavirus caused great fears for everyone
Thank you for protecting me
I wore a mask to prevent getting or giving the virus to others
It has not been easy to wear it
It is difficult to breathe while wearing a mask
I know this is short-term
Stores and malls will open again soon
There will be no masks needed everyday
I miss the personal touch of friends
who are stay home to avoid contracting the virus
Thank you for keeping me safe since
I have medical conditions that makes me vulnerable to the virus
People reading this a year or two
will not realize the concern we all had
Jesus, you are my savior and protector and my friend
Should I speak for only myself
or for others?
Temptation began
in my teenage years
continued through college days
and then just continued
Addictions developed
Wrong choices made
Does this sound familiar?
I pray each night
Jesus, lead me not into temptation
Forgive me for my wrong doings
Thank you Jesus
for your forgiveness
She never got over the loss
of her husband
There will be no one like him
Looking into her eyes
Bringing roses to her
every Friday
She will not look
for anyone else
to make her happy
She believes there is
no one for her
I understand
Few men bring flowers
or presents
to the person they love
Years are passing
I often see her
walking to her mailbox
Letters her only companion
She believes in Jesus
prays to accept her loneliness
Jesus
Please brings someone wonderful
into her life
who will fill it with love and roses
Hi Jesus,
we have gone a long way together
I remember your protecting me
from two car wrecks
where cars pulled in front of me
as I drove to work
I thought I would hit these cars
broadsided
Both times they were at a stop sign
then both times the cars
crossed directly in front of me
Was it Angels that suspended my car
during those times
I saw my entire life
flash across my mind
as I was prepared to crash
but the cars crossing in front of mine
on two different days
passed without crashing
Now, many years later
I think it was Angels,
God, Jesus or the Holy Spirit
who saved my life
However, I haven’t told the rest
of the story
There was another person in the car
a lovely lady named Melissa
who was going to work with me
we were carpooling from Louisville
to Hardinsburg, Kentucky
Hello Melissa, if you are reading this
I think you may remember this
and I think you could have been
as fearful as I was
I believe it was Angels
sent on assignment by God
that saved us
Thanks Jesus for
saving our lives
PS: Melissa, if you read this
let me know how are doing